Tea Entry #1: Day Unmedicated

Apr 22

April 22nd, 2025

Time of Day: Morning

Mused Under: Plain Black Tea

Origin Story: When I don’t take my medicine.

I become existential

and lonely

and oh so angry.

Rumination, endless—

“I will be abandoned.”

And how I will never stop writing about it.

And they will all have reason to leave me,

and I will always agree with them.

Always always endless endless.

My mother’s words cling to me

like a run-through cobweb,

and my archives lean over me

while I sit and I wish and wish

it was different.

But I’m sorry,

I wish it weren’t,

but it’s too late now.

I must wait till the sun’s next shift

to swallow my emotions

and cure my inheritance.

I must endure the rest of the day

waiting for the screaming to stop.

Tea Entry #2: the morning is good